I Want What I Can’t Have Right Now: Love

It’s spring and love is in the air. Some of my friends have found the “one” (for now, or maybe forever). I’ve even seen a few of my neighbors with their new boo’s (I know, I hate that word! LOL) holding hands and looking at each other like lovers do. Yet, here I sit in front of my monitor conflicted. I want a relationship too (or do I?). But Time declares, “Don’t bother! You’re too busy. Even I’m not on your side. Get t’crackin! (Get it? Time’s not on my… okay forget it…)

Time is so right. I can’t get enough of it. I need more of it than I do a relationship! I’m training for a new position at work, studying for Cyber Security certifications (no end in sight), and trying to find time to workout and play with my dogs and cat.

Yet, there’s a part of me that also wants love. Someone who will accept me as I am. Someone who is fun and outgoing. Funny and original. He doesn’t have to be rich (just not broke). At our age, he will need a decent retirement plan for himself too! LOL

I imagine us taking a spontaneous 4-day trip to the mountains and staying in a beautiful log cabin drinking wine and holding one another, and talk about future plans together.

We’ll travel around the world learning different cultures. We’ll wear our rain boots and stomp puddles in Rome and eat warm and flaky croissants in France. We will lock eyes under the stars and float above the green fields as our lips gently touch… (RECORD ALBUM SCRATCHES!!)



Okay, Okay… For real though… Maybe I’ll find someone one day whose time and availability match mine, and we will be happy to see one another when we can. And when we do see one another, each time will be like falling in love all over again!

Boy, I’ve got to stop fantasizing! Back to work!

Pray for me y’all! LOL